"Five minutes left..."

Last night I thought back on the year and although I am extremely grateful for all that I have been blessed with, this past year has been a roller-coaster of great expectations and disappointments, both personally and career-wise. My frustration meter has reached its highest readings yet.

Although my character is one of patience and understanding, and able to tolerate a respectable amount of wear and tear before the scales tip, this year has put the scales under severe strain and it seems the negative side is weighing in quite heavily. I don't know if writing these motivational blogs has placed me into some sort of pressure cooker test to see whether I can practice what I preach or whether I will just boil over with the heat.

This year, I know that I have done a great deal for my children and for my wife. I can see how they value and need me with the love in their eyes and the way they squeeze me when they give me hugs.
I know I have become part of a team at church with my contribution to the music group.
I also know I have added value at work with my efforts.

So having said all that, why do I still feel like I have come up short this year?

Driving home last night I felt so relieved that my annual leave has begun but also disappointed in myself that I haven't accomplished enough and the year is up. It kind of felt like writing an exam and the invigilator calls, "Five minutes left", and you still have many questions unanswered on your paper. I feel a desperation to rush around and try and get something done before the "Time up" is called. The reality is, that with the time available this year, I won't get to all the questions. However, I do know that I don't only have until midnight on December 31st to complete the exam. I have the option of making the most of the time left and setting new goals for the new year. I have the privilege of spending time with my family, making memories that will last them a lifetime. I have health and fitness that enables me to do my running and cycling. I have my intellect to be able to plan for the next year. I have love, which surpasses all other circumstantial issues, from my God, my wife, my children, my family members and my friends.

"To those I may have wronged, I ask forgiveness.
To those I may have helped, I wish I did more.
To those I neglected to help, I ask for understanding.
To those who helped me, I sincerely thank you so much...."

Remember you don't only have five minutes left!